Monday 19 September 2011

Memory that can never be erased....

Dear god..please heal her..
i dun want to lose her...

12.15 AM

It all happened last night at about 12 am ++ in the morning..i am about to get on my bed at tht time and get ready for school tommorow
luckily all my homework has finished except for few of them like BAHASA MALAYSIA....MIOW!!

suddenly....out of nowhere
she told us that she was sick....
i'm so confused at tht moment..."What happend to her?""
than she started to behave so different than herself before..she keep walking in the house again and again..and keep mentioning tht she was sick..
she doesn't want to listen anybody advice even my "parents"..we told her to sit down for a moment but she refused to do so...i dun know how to explain it...cuz at tht moment i'am already crying..afraid of losing people tht i love..
then she started to says all nonsense thing and wandering all over the house by herself
we try to persuaded her to go the hospital but it all hopeless..
i am so confused what is happening right now.

1.00 ++ AM

she already stop from crying ...but she keeps walkings slowly and slowly..she keeps saying to us please forgive all the mistake tht she has done....my hearts started to brakes after heard she says like tht...
suddenly she collapes in front of my eyes..it was so nerve-wrecking at tht moment..
i'm so shocked..watching the persn tht i love tumble in front of me very eyes
then my father askes me to get some water and swip the water all over her face..
i took the water and swip on her face but still no response......
while my father is waiting for ustaz to came at my house
with all the guts i have..i tried to check for her pulse....
but
when i hold her neck to check the pulse. .nothing seems to move
i tried to hold my tears..tears tht may been the most hurtful tears of my life...but i failed.... the skies also started to pour up heavily.....at outside
thinking of i may lose the person tht i love
i started prayed to God...


"dear God please don't take her life..i'm not ready to lose the person tht i love most....please i'm begging you..i dun have any companion if You take her... all my hope will lost forever if she's gone from this world.."


When my father saw me crying..he came to me.and asked "Why?"
i told him what just happens....i begged him to checked her pulse at her hand with full of hope tht i was wrong..
slowly my father hold her hand..and try to checked for her pulse..
thnx to God..her pulse was moving..i'm so relieved to know tht she still with us..

3.00 AM ++

uztaz arrived at my house...then all of us recite yasin for her....and prayed tht she will recover from her sickness...after a moment she started to open her eyes...we were so relieve at tht time.....after all the thing has finish...she become more relaxed than before....my father ustaz back to his house cuz it rains heavily ouside...
then i wait for her to sleep...and luckily she manage to sleep without any trouble....i stayed up until 6.00 am..in the morning thinking what has happen in that night and why...

we will never knows how much we love someone until we realise tht we will lose tht person...
so please love people tht care about you each second cuz we will never know when they will leave us

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