Tuesday 27 September 2011

Again

Why is this thing keeps happening..
i though tht she already recover...but i was totally wrong..

                                                                         6.00 AM
like everyday i wake up to a very icy morning..
but this time with a boulder on my head..
this headache is killing me...
yeah tht is the consequence if u thinking to much in the morning(2.00am-4.00am) and suddenly fall to sleep....
i woke up from my bed...walking toward the bathroom.
seeing all the thing around me with blurry vision
when suddenly....
i saw her face..and she seems a little bit strange...
i ask her "are you okay?"..but she remain silent...and her face was very pale..
she seem so confused and so do i
it was very strange...morning for me..
after the Subuh prayer..i start to recite Yassin and wishing tht nothing bad will happen to her..
after a few minutes..she start to talking to me..fuhh what a relief..
then i took 2 pills of activefast due to my headache..and went blank....for couple of hours

i know people might think this is just a fantasy stories..
but believe me i'm also wishing tht all this nonsense thing tht keeps happening in my life is just a fantasy..






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Monday 19 September 2011

Memory that can never be erased....

Dear god..please heal her..
i dun want to lose her...

12.15 AM

It all happened last night at about 12 am ++ in the morning..i am about to get on my bed at tht time and get ready for school tommorow
luckily all my homework has finished except for few of them like BAHASA MALAYSIA....MIOW!!

suddenly....out of nowhere
she told us that she was sick....
i'm so confused at tht moment..."What happend to her?""
than she started to behave so different than herself before..she keep walking in the house again and again..and keep mentioning tht she was sick..
she doesn't want to listen anybody advice even my "parents"..we told her to sit down for a moment but she refused to do so...i dun know how to explain it...cuz at tht moment i'am already crying..afraid of losing people tht i love..
then she started to says all nonsense thing and wandering all over the house by herself
we try to persuaded her to go the hospital but it all hopeless..
i am so confused what is happening right now.

1.00 ++ AM

she already stop from crying ...but she keeps walkings slowly and slowly..she keeps saying to us please forgive all the mistake tht she has done....my hearts started to brakes after heard she says like tht...
suddenly she collapes in front of my eyes..it was so nerve-wrecking at tht moment..
i'm so shocked..watching the persn tht i love tumble in front of me very eyes
then my father askes me to get some water and swip the water all over her face..
i took the water and swip on her face but still no response......
while my father is waiting for ustaz to came at my house
with all the guts i have..i tried to check for her pulse....
but
when i hold her neck to check the pulse. .nothing seems to move
i tried to hold my tears..tears tht may been the most hurtful tears of my life...but i failed.... the skies also started to pour up heavily.....at outside
thinking of i may lose the person tht i love
i started prayed to God...


"dear God please don't take her life..i'm not ready to lose the person tht i love most....please i'm begging you..i dun have any companion if You take her... all my hope will lost forever if she's gone from this world.."


When my father saw me crying..he came to me.and asked "Why?"
i told him what just happens....i begged him to checked her pulse at her hand with full of hope tht i was wrong..
slowly my father hold her hand..and try to checked for her pulse..
thnx to God..her pulse was moving..i'm so relieved to know tht she still with us..

3.00 AM ++

uztaz arrived at my house...then all of us recite yasin for her....and prayed tht she will recover from her sickness...after a moment she started to open her eyes...we were so relieve at tht time.....after all the thing has finish...she become more relaxed than before....my father ustaz back to his house cuz it rains heavily ouside...
then i wait for her to sleep...and luckily she manage to sleep without any trouble....i stayed up until 6.00 am..in the morning thinking what has happen in that night and why...

we will never knows how much we love someone until we realise tht we will lose tht person...
so please love people tht care about you each second cuz we will never know when they will leave us

Thursday 15 September 2011

NeW

Well..
i've already chnge my blog into new look
leaving all the past memories behind me 
with this new blog 
i wish to start a new live 
please support me my frenz

Sunday 11 September 2011

BerokeN

waa so many habuk2....

waaa so long not2 update2 this blog
yeah i got a great news

(^,^)

66 = A-
hohoho so happy like i can married for the 2nd time

but suddenly

(*,*)

75= A-

whoish...even robocop broke down when got this news..


congrat syarul u got B in your favor subject...

Yes! correctomondo...I got B in ENGLISH

 DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess from now on i will start to use broken2 english cuz i really fuck up this subject right now cuz no matter how hard i try to achieve my best goal in this subject but still...................HOPELESSS.......

i put so much effort when i'm doing the essay but the outcomes is really GUNDAH GULANA..
after this i want to write a story abaout sang kancil and labi2 in my next exam

DESERVED U RIGHT PEMERIKSAA!!

then when get the result...DESERVEd MY FACE BACK...malang2 LIKE THE old PROVERB SAys SABO JE LA!
hohoho

but still....i will cntinue to update my blog using BEROKEN english word cuz i am very forget the land person

s=...the END!! for now