Confession

How do i begin it,

are there words to confess it

you were more than love itself

you used to said you will love me forever

but now you tend to forget me..

may i ask you my love...

why??

i can't think without you with me

i can't see the shine without you supporting me

i can't live my life...or love this soul without you

there were so much memory left to be kept

you said we will be together forever..

but now my love..i can't see you anymore..

please my love..please stay with me..

tears begin to fall

i'm crying with hoping tht this tears can bring you back to me..

but it useless.........

i'm crying alone..like a lonely fool tht was hoping for miracle

tears begin to fall when missing you to much..

tired and hopeless..

because i'm here without you

everyday i keeps borrow

tears that drops from my tomorrow

with every hope tht a broken dream

could just be a dream...

.but 

all i've got is just a sorrow

it hurt's to be forgotten by you...

but it's more painfull for me to hate you..

as our memory comeback to haunt me

tears of love begin to flow again.....

OST Ombak Rindu

well i'm not a guy who likes to read novel very much but i have to admit..this movies leave a big impression in me..

this is the the original sountrack for (Ombak Rindu)..sang by HAFIZ and ADIRA.

for a person who is deeply in love...but have to leave their love ones...may found some specialties in this song lyric..

for me.....the lyrics itself just touched me and reminds me how sweet love can be....but in the same time.. how cruel love can do to one soul......to be seperate with the person you love most is very painfull....what more to have a broken hearts..

 cherish each moment tht you have with your loved one because ..tht all left for you..after they gone

...lyric...

  Adira :
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Hafiz :
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Adira :

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hafiz :
Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hafiz & Adira :
Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti

Hafiz:
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya

Adira:
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Again

Why is this thing keeps happening..
i though tht she already recover...but i was totally wrong..

                                                                         6.00 AM
like everyday i wake up to a very icy morning..
but this time with a boulder on my head..
this headache is killing me...
yeah tht is the consequence if u thinking to much in the morning(2.00am-4.00am) and suddenly fall to sleep....
i woke up from my bed...walking toward the bathroom.
seeing all the thing around me with blurry vision
when suddenly....
i saw her face..and she seems a little bit strange...
i ask her "are you okay?"..but she remain silent...and her face was very pale..
she seem so confused and so do i
it was very strange...morning for me..
after the Subuh prayer..i start to recite Yassin and wishing tht nothing bad will happen to her..
after a few minutes..she start to talking to me..fuhh what a relief..
then i took 2 pills of activefast due to my headache..and went blank....for couple of hours

i know people might think this is just a fantasy stories..
but believe me i'm also wishing tht all this nonsense thing tht keeps happening in my life is just a fantasy..

.

Memory that can never be erased....

Dear god..please heal her..
i dun want to lose her...

12.15 AM

It all happened last night at about 12 am ++ in the morning..i am about to get on my bed at tht time and get ready for school tommorow
luckily all my homework has finished except for few of them like BAHASA MALAYSIA....MIOW!!

suddenly....out of nowhere
she told us that she was sick....
i'm so confused at tht moment..."What happend to her?""
than she started to behave so different than herself before..she keep walking in the house again and again..and keep mentioning tht she was sick..
she doesn't want to listen anybody advice even my "parents"..we told her to sit down for a moment but she refused to do so...i dun know how to explain it...cuz at tht moment i'am already crying..afraid of losing people tht i love..
then she started to says all nonsense thing and wandering all over the house by herself
we try to persuaded her to go the hospital but it all hopeless..
i am so confused what is happening right now.

1.00 ++ AM

she already stop from crying ...but she keeps walkings slowly and slowly..she keeps saying to us please forgive all the mistake tht she has done....my hearts started to brakes after heard she says like tht...
suddenly she collapes in front of my eyes..it was so nerve-wrecking at tht moment..
i'm so shocked..watching the persn tht i love tumble in front of me very eyes
then my father askes me to get some water and swip the water all over her face..
i took the water and swip on her face but still no response......
while my father is waiting for ustaz to came at my house
with all the guts i have..i tried to check for her pulse....
but
when i hold her neck to check the pulse. .nothing seems to move
i tried to hold my tears..tears tht may been the most hurtful tears of my life...but i failed.... the skies also started to pour up heavily.....at outside
thinking of i may lose the person tht i love
i started prayed to God...


"dear God please don't take her life..i'm not ready to lose the person tht i love most....please i'm begging you..i dun have any companion if You take her... all my hope will lost forever if she's gone from this world.."


When my father saw me crying..he came to me.and asked "Why?"
i told him what just happens....i begged him to checked her pulse at her hand with full of hope tht i was wrong..
slowly my father hold her hand..and try to checked for her pulse..
thnx to God..her pulse was moving..i'm so relieved to know tht she still with us..

3.00 AM ++

uztaz arrived at my house...then all of us recite yasin for her....and prayed tht she will recover from her sickness...after a moment she started to open her eyes...we were so relieve at tht time.....after all the thing has finish...she become more relaxed than before....my father ustaz back to his house cuz it rains heavily ouside...
then i wait for her to sleep...and luckily she manage to sleep without any trouble....i stayed up until 6.00 am..in the morning thinking what has happen in that night and why...

we will never knows how much we love someone until we realise tht we will lose tht person...
so please love people tht care about you each second cuz we will never know when they will leave us

NeW

Well..

i've already chnge my blog into new look

leaving all the past memories behind me 

with this new blog 

i wish to start a new live 

please support me my frenz

my stars

BerokeN

waa so many habuk2....

waaa so long not2 update2 this blog
yeah i got a great news

(^,^)

66 = A-
hohoho so happy like i can married for the 2nd time

but suddenly

(*,*)

75= A-

whoish...even robocop broke down when got this news..


congrat syarul u got B in your favor subject...

Yes! correctomondo...I got B in ENGLISH

 DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess from now on i will start to use broken2 english cuz i really fuck up this subject right now cuz no matter how hard i try to achieve my best goal in this subject but still...................HOPELESSS.......

i put so much effort when i'm doing the essay but the outcomes is really GUNDAH GULANA..
after this i want to write a story abaout sang kancil and labi2 in my next exam

DESERVED U RIGHT PEMERIKSAA!!

then when get the result...DESERVEd MY FACE BACK...malang2 LIKE THE old PROVERB SAys SABO JE LA!
hohoho

but still....i will cntinue to update my blog using BEROKEN english word cuz i am very forget the land person

s=...the END!! for now




          

Hold on..

Sunshine rise again.....but

why i'm still in misery

birds are chipping loudly...but

why i'm still sad...

roses are blooming outside..but

why tears still drops..from this eyes

until now i can't find the cure of my sorrowness

until now i can't find thing tht missing in my life

slowly slowly i realised

why i became like this...

what is the cause of this sadness tht never ends

u suddenly disappearing...from my sight

i try to catch u...

i try to hold you

i try to keep u in my heart

but u still slippering away

please don't leave me....

please don't stop from loving me..

because u r the reason i'm live until today

word

words..

without words.. the world is silent..

without word... feeling will be gone

words can be poison..for us

words can be a cure..

words can make someone happy...

words can broke someone hearts....

by words we can say ' i love you'

by words we can say 'i miss you'

but

by words we can say 'i hate you'

words can bring hope to people...

words can be dissapintment to other..

words can make thosand of promise

but..words can be full of lie..

words can be bridge for the happiness and joy

words also can can broke hearts into pieces

words can make people smile in their day 

words can make tears in the night....

word are so kind to us

but sometime words can be so cruel

by words we get riends

by word we lost our love.

words can brings heaven to us

words can make hell for us..

please apprecite words..

cuz it will support the path tht u choose

please cherish the words

cuz it will become the guide in your life

serenity

seeing the road so far away

Choose the way tht  I want

Placing me in some place

Tht make my heart shattered

Nearby u..i feel so calm

Ur eyes is full of question

The mysteries of our life will soon disappear

The love will become the end of our journey

Love…please strength my heart

Will never let anything taking you from me

My instinc said

 will never lets it happen again

lost of true love

is like a life without a reason

I wish for the god

To love you as much as I do

Once a life with full of happiness

Now…become full of sadness..

However..our love stry end

Its just a story about a lover tht has been left  alone…

Its just sadness tht can’t never be forgetten..

Standing here,and seeing your smile

Is just enough for me..

HEarts.

I have two hearts Heart is circulate with blood And heart is pulsating with love Heart is overflowing with tears And heart is overflowing with perfume Heart is sky that we see And heart is earth tht we stood Heart is coldness in our night And heart is warmth in our day Heart is wave And heart is sand Heart is a book that have thousand of pages And heart is mirage Heart is flowers..flowers that will bloom when we are happy And heart is ashes..when we've been hurted so deeply Heart is rocks can withstand anything And heart is peace when i think of you Heart is the wound of yesterday, And heart is the wound of today, I'll never touch the wounds once again wound that are made by love When hearts are angry My heart is evergreen Whoever owns my heart Will own dreams and hopes And keys of happiness Forever and ever

LOSs And GAin

earlier this day a person just warning me for become so close with his angel..........is a common thing for boyfriend.. to protect their love ones...but be patient.....dont accuse before knowing the truth....don't judge the book BY ITS cover.......before asking anybody else.........................please ask your heart..? do you truelly have FAith In her?? do you really think that she love you damn much??.....if you say yes.. then no worries my frenz.. cuz when a single girls..committed her hearts toward a person.... believe me it will never fade away.....

but for me...i really respect HIM... he is really calm eventhough he know tht his gurlfriend has feeeling toward somebody else...be patience brother.......GivE her TIME....................GOD always blessed people with a heart like you.....i know it my fault cuz THe Way i'm TAlking to HEr make u feel mad..angry... but.....really there is nothing between us....i will release her as my frenz.. for the sake of your RElationShip....

please make her forget me.....

so tht i will not be the ones who tore apart a beautiful relationship tht i would never have...i really dun want to be like that....all i want is just to have a frenz.......please take care of her......cuz she is sooo kind.......

WORLD...when We lose a frenz...WE will Always GAin A frenz................but when we loss a HEART is impossible to b replace it

SAcriFIce

sacrifice........

what is love without sacrifice........

eventhough it hurt's me so much for letting u go..

i guess it is the best..choice to make 

it is better for me......
 to see you smile with other people..

then crying when you with me...

i just want to say 

sorry my love..

sorry for all the mistake tht i have done........
sorry cuz i can't be a perfect guy for you
sorry for loving you so much

sorry for making you sad....

eventhough my love for you...
 is beyond anything.
i have to make this choice
the choice tht broke my heart into pieces

 i want you to be happy

i want to stop the tears from your eyes

i don't want to hurt you anymore

but
please my dear

please promise me will you??
 please take care of yourself..

i will always watch you.....
so that i know you happy with your life
please don't cry little angel
please don't sad little angel
please be happy when i'm gone
eventhough we have nothing anymore
you are still my melody yo my hearts

THaNk yOu

ThaNk amnie...u r truelly friend thAt iS rare To FinD in THis Day...thnks For wiLling to guide me to CREate a blog....without you support i  dun think tht this will be cREAted.....

You haVe a beatiful smile...Dun cover it with You tears....Remember....If fatE says THt You With HIm..than it will bE...cherish your lifetime by making you hearts happy..so tht In the Fture When U r going To mEEt him.....u can Show Him how happy you are

TEARS

Tears are falling

Even I wiping them, they don’t stop

You are falling down

Even though I erase you, you are cut all over my body

I saw the wind

I am sending you and the memory with it

But I am trying to smile to be a man

I loved you

you were my reason to live

I want to stop you from going

I want to scream and cry

I am going to be patient even I miss you

you know I have nothing to give you

I will send you my prayers for your happiness

I call you

My heart cries out a word

I suppressed with my tears

Even I call you, you are not there

My love, how can you

leave me without saying anything

Today again, I hate youI loved you

you were my reason to live

I want to stop you from going

I want to scream and cry

I am going to be patient even I miss you

you know I have nothing to give you

I will send you my prayers for your happiness

Like before, I was a fool who only looking for you

It’s ok. You know I loved you

I was happy during my life

The day I send you off

I hate it as much as death

I am patient even though I miss you

You know I have nothing to give to you

I send my prayer of happiness to you

MISS YOU

i really miss you so much

miss your laugh..your smile....but i can't tell you all of this....i dun want to burden you with all my feeling.......my heart is still occupied by your soul...but i know we will never be together again..tears will flow everytime i thinks of you. saying tht you love me...

this is the reality..it doesn't care how much we love somebody but if the fate says tht they are not you..you just have to accept it....say by word is easy but..only god knows how hard for us to accept tht...

AFTER LOVE

I thought you were my love
I thought you were my everything
I believed that you would be my last love

I laughed only for you
I lived only for you
I believed in your love and that it was happiness

It’s all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You’ve hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you’ll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

Being loved by one person
Giving love to one person
I foolishly believed that person would be you

It’s all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You’ve hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you’ll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

To say it was love was a lie
Saying that you loved me was a lie
Saying it was eternal was a lie
Left me Only with the words that she’ll come back
Where did she go (We’re falling further apart)
WHere did she go We’re falling further & further apart
I’ll love only you

Just in case you came back, back to me
I can’t love again
Even though you hurt me, and saddened me
I’m waiting only for you

It’s all lies, All lies
Our separation was all a lie
Because you are my love, my all
I’m waiting only for you

FOR YOU EVENTHOUGH IT IS OVER

Seeing the road so far away

Choose the way tht  I want

Placing me in some place

Tht make my heart shattered

Nearby u..i feel so calm

Ur eyes is full of question

The mysteries of our life will soon disappear

The love will become the end of our journey

Love…please strength my heart

Will never let anything taking you from me

My instinc said

 will never lets it happen again

lost of true love

is like a life without a reason

I wish for the god

To love you as much as I do

Once a life with full of happiness

Now…become full of sadness..

However..our love stry end

Its just a story about a lover tht has been left  alone…

Its just sadness tht can’t never be forgetten..

Standing here,and seeing your smile

Is just enough for me..

NEW BORN IN BLOGGER WORLD

UUhh...sush gila ar nak wat blog.......but Practice make Perfect so....keEp the spirit